Wie sagt man ‘confidence and unrealistic belief in oneself’ auf Deutsch?
“If you can see it here (points to his head), and have the courage to speak it, it will happen.” – Conor McGregor
Vertrauen und unrealistischer Glaube an sich selbst. I can’t think of many other times in my life where there has been so much excitement going around. The past five weeks have been unbelievable. This weekend we have the Conor McGregor v. Floyd Mayweather fight, the season finale of Game of Thrones (that I’m watching exclusively auf Deutsch, which means I see more than I understand), and the Raccoons first game back after our summer break. I’m the most excited to get back on the field, to get back to my sanctuary, since my first game since college last year. Two weekends ago I surprised my family in New York City and met Mariano Rivera. The weekend before that I traveled to Copenhagen, Malmö, and Lund and met up with a 2nd cousin. Two weekends before that I went to Belgium for Tomorrowland and met up with a teammate from the Wolves in Brussels. Through it all, I came down with a cold and carried on towards my baseball dreams with abbreviated workouts. It was a whirlwind of excitement, definitely worth it, and reminded me of how wonderful life should always be. Now, back at full health and able to get back to my normal routines here, I’ve been able to process everything that happened and want to write about it.
A different world. A fantasy reality. An electronic dance music heaven on earth. I only went for one day (couldn’t have handled more) and was still blown away. I made the decision to attend the festival because (1) it’s the biggest, most fun, and legendary EDM festival on the planet (2) it was probably going to be more convenient to go this summer than any other time in my life (being only a 2.5 hour drive away) and (3) Gareth Emery was playing a set there on the Friday and he’s my favorite EDM artist. After arriving in the mid-afternoon, I entered the festival grounds and took a while to get my bearings. Even with helpful signs and a detailed map, it required a bit of critical thinking to decide how to enjoy my time at the festival before Gareth Emery came on at 9:30pm. All in all, I ended up seeing sets by R3hab, Marshmello, Ferry Corsten, Gareth Emery, Tiësto, Axwell /\ Ingrosso, and Steve Aoki. The highlight was hearing Gareth Emery’s remix of Castle on the Hill by Ed Sheeran. Such a touching and uplifting song.
New York City ->
When you’re given the opportunity to take an expenses paid trip to New York City for two nights to surprise your family and friends, you do it. I still feel blessed that I got the chance to do it. To see my family. To celebrate the 20th wedding anniversary of family friends. The cherry on top was getting to see a Yankees game and meet Mariano Rivera. He came into our suite and stayed for like 30 minutes!! What a legend. The two things that stood out to me the most about him were his grateful attitude and the value he places on service. He mentioned how the most meaningful moments he experiences nowadays are on mission trips or in his charity work, providing hope, lending a hand, in remote areas where nobody knows who he is. Where he can simply be a normal guy giving selflessly. It was an honor to share moments with him. To see how one of the elite in my field (pitching) carry themselves. Priceless.
The moments I surprised my parents and brother were also unbelievably priceless (I must have said the word unbelievable over a hundred times during the weekend). I snuck up on my parents as they headed to the check-in desk at our hotel and put my arm around my father, who looked at me with profound shock. They were ecstatic to see me 🙂 as I was to see them. I surprised my brother at the Yankees game. I arrived at the field early after meeting some friends from college for a brunch in Harlem. I wanted to see the pitchers warming up and was treated to some flatgrounds by the Yankees staff. I also got to see Drew Pomeranz warm up in the Red Sox bullpen. Immediately after the national anthem (which was an extremely surreal moment given I had spent 44 of the past 45 weeks outside of the country), I rushed up to the suite to see the first pitch with my family and friends. My brother was looking down towards the field and I gently tapped him on the shoulder. He turned his head, turned back towards the field in a double take, looked back to me and lit up as he realized who I was. He thought he was looking at a ghost. After enjoying the game together, we got to go out on the town together that night with some of his friends from a semester abroad in New Zealand. Everything connecting together, absolutely magical. My brother and I have been able to hang out together three times in the past year. In Melbourne, AUS, Washington D.C., and New York City. That is extraordinary. Roughly 48 hours after I had left JFK airport on the Friday, I was back there to get on my return flight to Germany. Life is unbelievable.
Believe it ->
We create our realities through our beliefs. When events take place in our lives that our outside of our limited paradigms, we label them unbelievable in order to remain sane. Seeing some of the best DJs in the world alongside hundreds of thousands of other people was unbelievable to me. Flying to New York City from Germany for two nights was unbelievable to me. Watching a mixed-martial artist go up against the greatest boxer of our era is unbelievable. Believe all of it. Believe in the magic of this universe. Often times you need to see something, or experience it first hand, to believe it. Other times you believe in something that seems impossible. That only you believe. That everyone else says is unrealistic. What happens when you believe in something before it exists? Before you can see it? Before it is tangible?
You realize your dreams no matter what the odds are. No matter if you quit your job as an apprentice plumber at the age of 18 to fight people in a cage. No matter if you had an underwhelming pitching career at a NCAA Division 3 school. No matter if you were taking welfare checks because you made almost nothing from your fights for years. No matter if you were out of baseball at the age of 23, rehabbing an elbow injury while working a corporate job. Belief will get you where you want to go. If you have a vision and believe in that vision with all your heart, you will manifest that vision. I have studied confidence extensively over the past few years, carefully observing the behavior of ultra-confident people. Conor McGregor pings my confidence sensors like no one I have ever seen. This guy exudes absolute confidence in a powerful aura around him. He believes in himself and his vision with 100% certainty. He is committed. He is obsessed. He is possessed. He will conquer the unconquerable tonight. I am committed. I am obsessed. I am possessed. I will conquer the unconquerable. I will achieve my dream of pitching at least 90mph, wherever I want it, in any situation and win a world series as a starting pitcher for the San Diego Padres.